Using or Losing our Voices:
I drove home thinking, "but it is my voice."
Two interesting, intersecting incidences happened this week. First, I went to an ear, nose and throat Dr. who told me I needed voice therapy. Really? I've been talking most of my life and I'm pretty good at it. Second, the publicist who works for Personhood Press requested an endorsement from a Pentecostal professor for Prostitutes, Virgins and Mothers: Questioning Teachings About Biblical Women.
The Pentecostal professor could not endorse my work because he noted an, "echo of frustration" in my writing. If an echo of frustration is all he detected I wrote really well. He suggested that an editor rework the manuscript to remove that frustration. In other words take my voice out of my manuscript.
I went to the voice therapist. "Your voice is to breathy," she told me. "Yes, I've been told that my whole life." "Your voice is to low," she said. "I know it has always been low." "Here are some exercises to change you voice," she added as she handed me a yellow folder.
I drove home thinking, "but it is my voice. I want my voice. I like my voice."
Both these encounters aimed at changing my voice. One physically the other religiously and I suppose politically as well. Both wanted to make my voice more acceptable, less abrasive to them. I have written the book I have written because I am more than frustrated and I speak with the voice I do because it is my voice. It my not be acceptable to all but I intend to use it physically, religiously, politically and any other way I can. What about you?