Friday, April 22, 2016

Not All Surprises Are Good!




Surprise, there is something wrong with you!

5/4/15 Riding down in the elevator from my hip replacement pre-op apportionment, I got a call.  The conversation went something like this:

ME: "Hello."
HER: "Paula, this is Dr. D*****."
ME: "Oh hi." (but in my mind, Oh S#^*) I mean getting a phone call directly from you doctor is never a good thing.  
HER: "Based on the results of your last pap, I have made an appointment for you with a surgeon on Friday.  Can you make it?"
ME: (Not in my head) "Oh S#^*!!!"

Surprise, we messed up!

Back up from the story above to June 1, 2014. My first book Prostitutes, Virgins and Mothers: Questioning Teachings About Biblical Women was published. It was and is a dream come true.  Five months after publication I went to the American Academy of Religion / Society of Biblical Literature annual meeting, in San Diego.  It was another dream come true.  My book was to be at the IPG booth in the exhibit hall.  When I got to the booth I had another "Oh S#^*" conversation,

HER: "I have been dreading this moment."
ME: "Why, you don't even know me?"
HER: "I recognize you from the picture on your book. Your book is not here."
ME: (Head hanging) "This is the most anti-climatic moment of my life. Why?"
HER: "The woman who was charged with sending the books quit and didn't tell anyone she hadn't sent them."
ME: "I have books in my car."
HER: "Well, if you want to go get them we can sell them and send you replacements."

So, in my cute, new, black wedgies I walked back to my hotel, got a heavy bag of books out of my car and walked back to the booth. Have you ever been to the San Diego Convention Center? It is miles long. Something went seriously wrong with my hips.  I had been having a bit of discomfort but now I was in serious pain. I left the meeting early because I could not walk.  The good news is IPG sold out of my book.

Surprise, do you want the good news or the bad news?

Fast forward to January 2015 and my book wins a gold medal from Illuminations Book Awards. I go for a long walk with God and say, "Thanks God for this award! This confirms for me more than anything that I am on the path to which you have called me." I wrote a thank you note to the awards director and related this story. He said, " I agree, you're on a divine path with their book."

I may be on a divine path but I could not walk the day after my walk with God. What ever happened at the AAR / SBL meeting happened again and I wasn't even wearing my cute, black wedgies.   That brings me to the elevator story above and the reason I have not posted a blog in about a year. Pain is a great distractor but if you pay intention there are lessons to be learned. More about the lessons learned from pain,  next week.





6 comments:

  1. Paula, my husband used to say "When you are up to your a$$ in alligators, it's hard to remember you are there just to drain the swamp." I never understood exactly what that meant, but I think it fits very nicely with why you haven't written or posted a blog.

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    1. Thank you, June. I was definitely up to my a$$, but around on the front side. When I found out I was going to be sedentary for a while, I thought I would get a lot of writing done. Mostly I watched a lot of really bad T.V.

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  2. I should add that I look forward to reading about the lessons you have learned. I know I have learned the most about myself from the hardest experiences I have had to move through. Not easy, but I am truly grateful for what they have taught me. <3

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    1. I am starting today to write my lessons learned from pain. I plan to post it on Friday.

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  3. Paula...I know you went through a lot of pain, but you are a role model for me and many others. You smiled, held your head in grace and now I bet you can even sign up for Zumba! Looking forward to more blogs from you!

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    1. I am so glad you said that, Sunny. I never wanted my pain to show. It is great to know I was successful. Zumba here I come. :->

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